My Heart
Six years old, him telling me he loved me.
But doing what he wanted to me
Growing up with nothing,
Feeling like nothing,
I was lost as a child
Not having nobody by my side
Taking care of myself.
Running the streets at thirteen
Trying to find love, in all the wrong places
Grandfather telling me loved me
As long as I didn’t say nothing
Father says he loves me,
But haven’t seen him since forever.
Momma saying she loves me too,
When she wants,
But on the streets doing what she wants to do
So now what’s next…
I’m lost, alone, scared, worried about who’s going to tell me
They love me next.
I’m scared.
So now what do I do?
Now seventeen years old still going through
The same problems.
Sitting in this program, wondering what’s gonna happen next
Momma still running the streets,
Some days, I think I’m going to get the wrong phone call
Dad still dead in the ground, nowhere to be found
So now what do I do?
Do I let this affect my future?
No, I’m going to move on with my life.
And be that young lady everybody say I can’t and won’t be
‘Cause it’s my life
-MS